You all look at me with worry in your eyes
never knowing the thoughts going through my mind
you thought I was doing it all on purpose
and never thought I'd get worse with time.

You see, its not something that easy to explain
how am I supposed to say Im afraid to eat?
That something inside my head is telling me
that eating is only for the weak?

How can I possibly explain in any way to you
that everytime I look in the mirror I see
a monster, a beast, too fat to live, too ugly
the mirror never lies, the mirror says its me.

How can I say without you getting upset
that when you are all asleep I lie awake
and instead exercise to the extreme
to rid myself of each and every mistake.

I cannot explain how it started
I cannot explain why its still here
but I can tell you that it carries on
simply due to my own fear.

It may get better or may get worse
but I need all your support to help me
and then one day, it'll all be okay,
I wont be living like this, I'll just be free.